Confession

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dear senior,

"hey,.... umm... well, i have something to tell you"
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"i like you"
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 "oh, its okay. i tak harap apa apa pun. i just thought you should know."

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"this might be creepy and you'll creep out but please try not to. i found your twitter though... well actually, my friends found it. and then when i tell them about you, they showed me your twitter so i just sort of  "look" at it for a few times.... a week...?"

 "so i kinda "knew" what you are, atleast who you are on twitter?... because people usually on twitter when they have something to say that is not suitable to say to anyone specific i guess? but yea... i found it cute the way you got mad at the barber because his razor left your scalp painful, the way you said your mom brought another kittens home, the way you said you yourself were confused who is  actually getting married because you were wearing a white baju melayu as well, i found it interesting to know that you drank more than 2l of water a day before the Marshmello concert and you like Daiyan Trisha, other stuff you retweeted and liked.."

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"im a bit weird thats why i never harap apa apa pun from you. its fine, like i said, i just thought you should know. please enjoy your life, goodluck in everyhting, i wish nothing but the best. stay humble, smile more trust me you look better, way way much better smiling, stay kind and stay your deep thoughts, someone might appreciate them later on"

"That is all... hahah! enjoy your days and years ahead. please be happy, and be in love with someone who appreciate all your deep and unpopular opinions :D "


((4.47a.m, 24 December 2017- i wish i can say that to him...))

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