dear future, i'm doing this for you.

bismillahirrahmanirrahim... this one will look lil bit bad, but bear with me through out the entire session. i had a dream of becoming a doctor when i grew up. i have always, always wanted to be one. i dont know, i dont think its about the "asian environment" i have been growing up with because i have always been the rebellious one. like, if i nak jadi doctor just because my parents said so, i dont think so. i dont think i want to be a doctor sebab few of my realatives are. but i simply wanted to be a doctor because the thought of doing something for someone excites every particles inside me. the thought of sitting behind the table and listen to the mother telling me whats wrong with the child, the thought of seeing a man walked out of my room looking satisfied because he finally knew whats going on with his body lately, really makes me feel i cant wait to have that kind of life. when i voiced out my ambition to my sisters and my parents, they questioned me " ar...