dear future, i'm doing this for you.
bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
this one will look lil bit bad, but bear with me through out the entire session.
i had a dream of becoming a doctor when i grew up. i have always, always wanted to be one. i dont know, i dont think its about the "asian environment" i have been growing up with because i have always been the rebellious one. like, if i nak jadi doctor just because my parents said so, i dont think so. i dont think i want to be a doctor sebab few of my realatives are. but i simply wanted to be a doctor because the thought of doing something for someone excites every particles inside me. the thought of sitting behind the table and listen to the mother telling me whats wrong with the child, the thought of seeing a man walked out of my room looking satisfied because he finally knew whats going on with his body lately, really makes me feel i cant wait to have that kind of life. when i voiced out my ambition to my sisters and my parents, they questioned me
well, i guess i never see the struggles before. but as the time goes by, i turned 17 and i still wanted to be a doctor. my ambition was burning up and i spent my whole year...
watching k-dramas that are related to doctors. (Doctors, Descendants Of The Sun (!!!))
lmao seriously guys, i didnt study like i wanted to be a doctor. stupid 17 years old asyura i regretted though i swear im gonna blame myself for not studying well those times, for the rest of my life.
and ofcourse, my spm result wasnt satisfying at all and i cant be a doctor. but time healed everything i guess. i still got to continue my studies somewhere in malaysia. i still have the chance to get employed. or to be the employer. who knows?
but what i know right now is i want to sleep and i am very tired. im not complaining though, really to be honest i like this exhausted feeling. it feels like im doing something for my future.
this one will look lil bit bad, but bear with me through out the entire session.
i had a dream of becoming a doctor when i grew up. i have always, always wanted to be one. i dont know, i dont think its about the "asian environment" i have been growing up with because i have always been the rebellious one. like, if i nak jadi doctor just because my parents said so, i dont think so. i dont think i want to be a doctor sebab few of my realatives are. but i simply wanted to be a doctor because the thought of doing something for someone excites every particles inside me. the thought of sitting behind the table and listen to the mother telling me whats wrong with the child, the thought of seeing a man walked out of my room looking satisfied because he finally knew whats going on with his body lately, really makes me feel i cant wait to have that kind of life. when i voiced out my ambition to my sisters and my parents, they questioned me
"are you sure?" not in a bad way, but in a concerning tone.
"yea? i mean, it looks fun helping and giving out myself to people?"
well, i guess i never see the struggles before. but as the time goes by, i turned 17 and i still wanted to be a doctor. my ambition was burning up and i spent my whole year...
watching k-dramas that are related to doctors. (Doctors, Descendants Of The Sun (!!!))
lmao seriously guys, i didnt study like i wanted to be a doctor. stupid 17 years old asyura i regretted though i swear im gonna blame myself for not studying well those times, for the rest of my life.
and ofcourse, my spm result wasnt satisfying at all and i cant be a doctor. but time healed everything i guess. i still got to continue my studies somewhere in malaysia. i still have the chance to get employed. or to be the employer. who knows?
but what i know right now is i want to sleep and i am very tired. im not complaining though, really to be honest i like this exhausted feeling. it feels like im doing something for my future.
