trauma.
i came here again tonight as i have no where else to go. i don't want to make someone else feel miserable with my own misery. but i cant hold it in alone. i'm tired i'm scared. i want to forget things too. but why does it keeps on coming to me and haunt me almost everyday.. i remembered clearly what happened that night. the night that left me sleepless for more than a weak as i was haunted by everything that happened that night. my chest feels suffocated every time i remembered what happened. every. single. thing. they keep on replaying in my head as if they live in there rent-free. never want to leave. it happened months ago, but every thing is still fresh in my head. get it out. please. i started cutting because of this. and every time i remembered of what happened i had to calm myself alone in my room. i had to calm myself from my heavy breathing, from the chest pain, from the demons that keeps on reminding me of that night-- and from holding the knife to my veins. ...